How do you know you’re living the life you were meant to live, or the one that just happened to you?
– Betrayal Season 1 Episode 2
How do you know indeed… this is a really interesting question and I think one that sometimes requires a lot of thought and meditation on what you want out of life, and what makes you happy, I think that’s the life you were “meant” to live. I think sometimes that feeling of being lost in life, of not being sure of what you’re doing, maybe even what you feel you’re “supposed” to be doing can be a bit of an indication that you need to sit down and spend some time with your self and think about what you and it want and how you can achieve it.
I had time to start doing this when I was over in Victoria for the weekend, it brought things up that made me realise that there are things I’m doing that don’t necessarily make me happy and other things that would bring me more joy if I did them. And it’s not what my parents or even my partner would expect of me. Ok, maybe volunteering at the zoo, but I also want to go on meditation and yoga retreats; I have a girlfriend who is interested as well so we can explore that together. My partner looks at even that stuff as “woo-woo” stuff and has no interest in it, and to be honest I think that’s part of what’s held me back. But I think at the end of the day being true to my self and what it wants is something that I need to do to feel whole and like I’m nourishing my soul.
I think a lot of my life up to this point has been living the life that happened to me, and I think that is because of the pressure to be who those around me expected me to be. But I do feel like change is in the air and I’m getting more of a grasp on what I’m meant to be doing with my life.
There’s a lot of “I thinks” there but what about you, what do you think?
I did my first proper meditation session the other day, it was a guided one with a teacher talking us through it, so not an app or anything like that. We were sitting out in the park, it was a lovely warm day, the birds were calling, and we meditated for about 15 minutes.
Oh it was wonderful. The sense of calm and peace that I felt afterwards was amazing, I felt so centred and just really good. If you have never tried it before then I recommend you definitely try it, it will surprise you.
Ahh first week of February, where did you go? It was a steadily busy week, but an enjoyable one though. I’m a day late doing this post because I was out with a couple of girlfriends last night and didn’t get home until really late.
Booked holidays! Last weekend I booked two holidays, a quick trip to Melbourne to visit a friend which is next weekend, yay! And then another one to Kangaroo Island over Easter.
Grandparents. Last Sunday I stopped in to visit my grandparents because my grandpa often drives the bus for some school kids when they take them over to Kangaroo Island and so, because we’ve booked an Easter Holiday there, I popped over to see them and talk to him about good things to do over there.
Meditation. One of the things I done with my teams is get them to organise some kind of team bonding, so each quarter on person will organise something, and it can be as short as 20-30 minutes or up to 3 hours. One of my teams decided to do meditation, so we spent an hour on Monday taking a stroll to the park, talking about meditation and then doing a meditation session, and it was really good. I felt so calm and relaxed as well.
Drumming. My other team organised drumming in the park. One of the guys has a few Djembe drums, and another that I can’t remember the name of. So we sat around, we learned three sounds to make with the drums and then we slowly put some of that together to make music. It was lots of fun, a bit challenging but just challenging enough that it kept me really entertained.
Dinner with the girls. Last night a couple of girlfriends and I went down to one of the local Community Clubs for a meal which wasn’t to bad. It was fun catching up with the girls as always and the club did a raffle draw as well, not that I win anything but one of the girls did which was nice.
How was your week this week? Are there any highlights you’d like to share?